Hee Young stays on their garden after Young Saeng brought her home. Reminiscing how wonderful her day was while staring at the night sky.
“What happen my precious? You seemed so happy now.” Min Ho said and put a thick jacket on her shoulder.
“Me and Young Saeng are now dating.”
“Really? That‘s a good news! You really should be happy about it.”
Ye. I‘m so happy that I think I‘m going to hell.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I‘ll end up hurting him, knowing that I miss him so much. I wanna hold his hands and be with him. What makes me happy now will hurt him later. But I can‘t help it. I‘ll definitely go in hell.”
“Is god blind? Doesn‘t he have any conscience?” Min Ho said with teary eyes.
“Oppa” Hee Young hugged his brother,
“Don‘t afraid to be happy my precious. God will take you away from me soon so he‘ll understand.” Min Ho continued as he embrace her sister more tightly.
Hee Young and Young Saeng made their relationship open with his members and other closest friends but not to the public. With Hee Young’s condition and Young Saeng’s popularity, making their relationship in public would be a bad idea at all. Even though Kyu Jong feel awkward whenever he see them together, he still managed to show them smiles. All he wants is to make her happy. Even if her happiness will give him pain, he still willing to give way.
One night, Hee Young and Young Saeng came home late from their usual dates that made Min Ho worry so much about her sister. When the couple reached home, they saw Min Ho standing in front door with his arms crossed.
“Young Saeng, go home now. The night is over” Min Ho said in a stern voice.
Young Saeng felt that Min Ho was slightly pissed so he just said goodbye to Hee Young.
“Hee Young, do you know what time is it?” Min Ho asked after Young Saeng leaved.
“Come on Min Ho oppa, I‘m not a child anymore.”
“Then stop acting like one…”
“He loves me…”
“I know, that‘s why I‘m asking you to be fair with him before things get worst.” Min Ho said and entered the house.
Hee Young felt like the words of his brother was a bullet that shot in her heart. She knows that she can’t hide everything to Young Saeng. She knows that sooner or later, she needs to tell him everything about her condition. She draw her phone from her bag and send Young Saeng a message.
To: Young Saeng
Message: Can you pick me up tomorrow around 6PM?
From: Young Saeng
Message: Why? Where do you want to go?
To: Young Saeng
Message: I want to stroll at the park, can you come?
From: Young Saeng
Message: Of course!!! See you tomorrow night!! I missed you already.
To: Young Saeng
Message: I missed you too. Good night!!
From: Young Saeng
Message: I love you baby! See you in my dreams later! <3
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Hee Young and Young Saeng was strolling at the park while holding hands. Young Saeng keeps on talking about his activities with the members but all he receive was a nod from her. He can’t take Hee Young’s silence anymore so he confront her about it.
“Baby what‘s wrong?? I‘ve been talking here for hours and seem like you‘re not interested at all.”
Hee Young released his hands and walked a few steps ahead of him then face him again.
“I‘m sick.” She said.
“You should have told me, I‘ll take you home so you could be better…”
“No Young Saeng! Listen to me!” Hee Young cut his words. “I‘m sick, I have Leukemia” She said with teary eyes.
“No… you‘re 25... You‘re perfect…you‘re just kidding right?”
“I‘m not kidding…I found that five years ago and my body stops responding to treatments ”
Young Saeng got shocked after hearing what she said and make his tears starts to fall in his cheeks.
“So why didn‘t you tell me?”
“The doctor said that I should go on and live life normally as best as I could, I don‘t want anybody to be weird around me”
“Including me?”
“Specially you!!!” Hee Young starts to broke down with her tears “You know I was getting along with everything fine, I accepted it, and then you happened!… I do not need a reason to be angry with god..”
Hee Young ran away after saying those words to him. Leaving Young Saeng lost in her words. Young Saeng remained standing where Hee Young left him. He can’t believed that the love that he just found will be gone soon.
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Kyu Jong woke up with the loud knock outside his door. He put his robe on and headed to the door to see who was it.
“Young Saeng hyung! What happened to you?” Kyu Jong asked when he saw his hyung leaning on the wall.
“She‘s sick…” Young Saeng replied while staring in space.
“Sick? Who?”
“Hee Young….”
“Yeah I know she was sick before but she was fine now right?”
“She has Leukemia…..”
“Yah hyung! Don‘t play around those kind of jokes! It‘s not funny!” Kyu Jong scolded him
Young Saeng broke down in tears in front of Kyu Jong.
“She‘s sick kyu!!! She has leukemia!!!! I wish it was a joke but it‘s not!” Tears fall down to his cheeks and sob continuously.
Kyu Jong hugged Young Saeng to give him comfort. He hold back his tears and just pat his hyung’s back repeatedly.
“Sssh…Everything will be alright hyung….. Everything will be alright…” Kyu Jong said while still holding back his tears.
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Days quickly passed without any news from Hee Young. Young Saeng was at lost most of the time, the other member and his manager felt sorry for him. They always saw him spacing out, doesn’t eat much and just stare at his phone most of the time. Their manager couldn’t bare it anymore and decided to give him a rest.
Kyu Jong visit Hee Young but the maid told him that their Young Lady doesn’t want to accept visitors.
“No, I wouldn‘t leave here until I talked to her.” Kyu Jong protested.
“But the Young Lady said….”
“It‘s alright, she‘s in the pond Kyu. You can find her there” Min Ho cut their conversation.
“Komawo Min Ho hyung!” Kyu Jong exclaimed and made his way to the pond.
Kyu Jong found Hee Young sitting on the bench beside the pond. Just like his hyung, he found her spacing out.
“How come that I am not allowed to see my best friend??” He said and sit beside her.
Hee Young got stunned to see him sitting beside her. “Omo! What are you doing here Kyu??”
“You were not responding on my text nor my calls so I decide to came here.”
“Mianhe Kyu…..I owe you an explanation for everything.” Hee Young lowered her head.
“ Yeah, I really need an explanation to what‘s happening now.”
“Mianhe Kyu, for keeping you blinded. I was diagnosed to have Chronic Leukemia five years ago.”
“Why didn‘t you tell me? I could‘ve stayed on your side by those times.”
“That‘s the reason why I didn‘t tell you, I don‘t want you to give up your dreams just for me.”
“But…”
“It‘s alright Kyu, I can‘t bare the fact that you‘ll see my sufferings in the past five years. I never regret my decision but I‘ve been holding this guilt inside me for a long time…. I‘m sorry Kyu for leaving you behind…I‘m sorry if I didn‘t fulfill my promise when I said that I‘ll be there in your debut…. I‘m really sorry…”
Kyu Jong anchor his arms to her shoulder and slowly pulled Hee Young‘s head and make her lean to his shoulder. “I already forgave you…I don‘t know why but I can‘t get mad at you.. You‘re one of the reasons why I keep going on for the past five years. I’m waiting for your return, and now you’re by my side again I wouldn’t asked for more. ”
“Komawo Kyu. Thank you for letting me have good memories. Sorry if I can‘t stay long enough for you. Please be happy, I cared for you so much so you should be happy. Arrasso?? Please promise me that you’ll be happy, that you’ll be well…. “ Hee Young said in soft voice.
Kyu Jong put his hand on his mouth to prevent himself from crying out loud. He starts to sob quietly after hearing those words from her.
The next day. Jung Min, Hyung Jun, Kyu Jong and Hyun Joong decided to barge in Youn Saeng’s place and cheer him up. They were not surprise to see that Young Saeng on the backyard and still spacing out.
“Young Saeng Hyung!!!” Hyung Jun exclaimed.
“What are you guys doing here?” Young Saeng replied in a pale voice.
“Uhmmm.. We came here to play!” Jung Min said.
“Do my place look like a playground to you?”
“Young Saeng ah… Stop being so grumpy today, ” Hyun Joong said to him.
“Young Saeng Hyung! We bought meat! let‘s have a barbeque party here in your backyard!”
“Do whatever you guys want to do… I‘ll be on my room.” He said
Young Saeng was about to enter the house when he saw someone standing at the door. The four guys look at the same direction where Young Saeng was looking at.
“Hee Young noona!!! You‘re here! How are you?” Hyung Jun fired up his questions.
Hee Young just smiled at them and take a few more steps towards them.
“Let‘s go inside guys! We‘ll cook this meat on the kitchen.” Hyun Joong command them. He knew that the couple should have their private talk.
“But I thought we‘re going to have a barbeque here?” Hyung Jun asked.
“Aish!! Don‘t be so stubborn now and just follow what Hyun Joong Hyung said” Jung Min retorted.
“But I….” Jung Min cut Hyung Jun’s word by grabbing his shirt and dragged him inside the house.
“It‘s alright now my princess, you can talk to him now.” Kyu Jong said to her and follow the 3 guys inside the house.
Hee Young walks toward to Young Saeng.
“I‘m sorry.. I‘ve should‘ve have really told you sooner..” She said.
“Are you scared??”
“To death?? Cheer up!” Hee Young placed her hands on his cheeks while smiling.
“This is not funny…”
Hee Young leaned her head to his forehead, pause for a while and holding back her tears.
“I‘m scared not being with you…” She said and lowered her head to hide her teary eyes.
“That would never happen baby…” He replied while lifting her chin and slowly embraced her.
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(After a few hours)
“Dinner is ready!” Kyu Jong called out the couple.
“Let‘s go, I wonder what mess did these kids done to my kitchen” Young Saeng said to her while chuckling. His mood brightened up after having a conversation with her.
“Aigoo… look at hyung‘s face, he looks like a zombie a few days ago but all I can see now is a wide smile that almost reached his ears” Hyung Jun teased his hyung.
“Aissshh! This kid really like to spoil my mood.” Young Saeng retorted.
“Wow! You made all these?” Hee Young asked.
“De. Jung Min and I prepared these foods. While Hyung Jun and Hyun Joong hyung just … never mind” Kyu Jong said.
“Yah! We did help too!” Hyun Joong exclaimed.
“Yeah, you did help us hyung by eating all the ingredients that we prepared” Jung Min said.
“Arraso, stop with the bickering now and let‘s eat. By the way, why there are only two plates in the table?” Hee Young asked.
“We prepared a dinner only for both of you….” Kyu Jong said with smiles.
“Thank you guys!!” Young Saeng said.
“We‘ll take our leave now, enjoy the night..” Hyun Joong said and the four guys headed out of the house.
“Stay there, I‘ll just get something on my room.” Young Saeng said to her.
After a few minutes, Young Saeng got back on the table and he handed a small bottle to her.
“What‘s this?” Hee Young asked.
“It‘s a present, Don’t be sick anymore. That capsules cures everything and everybody in Seoul knows it.”
Hee Young look at it the bottle closely.
“Once a day okay? Don‘t overdose it.” He warned her.
“Excuse me for a while”. Hee Young said to him . She ran to her room and cried while staring at the capsule.
She pick one capsule and open it, she found a small piece of paper inside and read the content of it.
“Wondering why I like you, I miss you…”
She pick another one and read it again.
“It‘s raining now, but the rain can‘t cool down my love for you…”
Hee Young cried so much after reading some of Young Saeng's note to her. She starts to feel the pain in her chest again but not as painful as the first attack. Young Saeng entered her room and saw that she’s clutching her chest. Hee Young almost fall but Young Saeng manage to catch her.
“Hey, stay with me. If it hurts then scream, hold me and cry! Don‘t try to hide it. It hurts me so much, It feels like as if I‘m going to die before you” He said while embracing her and then he saw the open capsules beside her.
“Pabo.. I told you not to overdose it.”
“I‘m scared Young Saeng I‘m so scared” She cried more.
“I was afraid that I might die before reading all these.”
“Shhh…. It‘s alright….you still have a lot of time to read it.” He said while hugging her, trying to ease the pain that she felt.
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A month quickly passed and things got smooth between Hee Young and Young Saeng. He visits her everyday and he even slept in her house when he doesn’t have activities on the following day. The other members often visit too.
“Good morning my precious, did you have a good sleep last night? Come here, let‘s have our breakfast together.” Min Ho said to her.
“De..” She said in a soft voice while holding her forehead. She felt dizzy while walking towards her chair. but she fainted before she can reach her sit.
Min Ho ran beside her and mildly slapped her cheeks to gain her consciousness but he failed.
“Yah!! Hee Young ah!! Yah!! Call the ambulance!! Pali!!!” Min Ho said in panic.
